It's been awhile, my friend....
Maybe so long that no one ever comes here to visit anymore. I don't know why that makes me so sad. This is not a happy place. This is not a blog like my others...there's no reason to make cute background designs or to change the fonts and colors of posts. There's no real reason to come here to smile...
So why am I here...I'm not sure really. I guess at this point this is the closest I can get to you Brian. I talk to you alot...especially now that I have Abby. I think about what you would think of her. Of what you would have said when we told you we were going to be parents. How much you would have loved her and how fun you would have been for her.
And I watch your sweet Livi grow up. And I feel sad that you aren't here. That you are missing her become this unbelieveable little lady. I know you aren't really missing her. That you are in heaven watching over all of us. That you are helping to bring these wonderful little experiences to us. I know that your life in heaven is so magical now. And you are whole.
But I still miss you....
Livi is really doing great. She misses you and talks about you often. I think you would be glad to hear that. That she will always be Daddy's little girl. In her mind, you are the greatest, the fastest, the strongest, the most perfect daddy ever. She will go through life always knowing you in that way and that is beautiful to me. You have a very special little girl.
So she is here with us for a couple of weeks. I know you know that.... :) she talks about you a lot. And she was telling me that her favorite picture of the two of you is the one that you are holding her in the palm of your hand. And I told her that was your favorite picture too. I remember Jessica telling me that when she brought it to the hospital. And I also think about how fitting that both of your favorites is the one where you are holding her in the palm of your hand....and I think that's just what you are doing now.
She wears your grateful dead tshirt to bed and she hums shakedown street...LOL I know you are proud of that. But most importantly she has such a sweet, innocent spirit. That reaches out and grabs you...and makes you smile. She makes me smile. And I know you are proud of her.
I'm sorry Brian. I'm sorry that you are missing this. I'm sorry you had to experience a difficult ending to a sometimes painful journey on this planet. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you....
But I'm glad I knew you here on earth and I look forward to seeing you in heaven one day.
Keep the party going until we get up there!
I love you
Jamie
PS. I'm glad you were there to welcome my dear sweet Brody home. I'm sure he was glad to see a friendly face. And it comforts me (and Livi) to know that y'all are together.
So why am I here...I'm not sure really. I guess at this point this is the closest I can get to you Brian. I talk to you alot...especially now that I have Abby. I think about what you would think of her. Of what you would have said when we told you we were going to be parents. How much you would have loved her and how fun you would have been for her.
And I watch your sweet Livi grow up. And I feel sad that you aren't here. That you are missing her become this unbelieveable little lady. I know you aren't really missing her. That you are in heaven watching over all of us. That you are helping to bring these wonderful little experiences to us. I know that your life in heaven is so magical now. And you are whole.
But I still miss you....
Livi is really doing great. She misses you and talks about you often. I think you would be glad to hear that. That she will always be Daddy's little girl. In her mind, you are the greatest, the fastest, the strongest, the most perfect daddy ever. She will go through life always knowing you in that way and that is beautiful to me. You have a very special little girl.
So she is here with us for a couple of weeks. I know you know that.... :) she talks about you a lot. And she was telling me that her favorite picture of the two of you is the one that you are holding her in the palm of your hand. And I told her that was your favorite picture too. I remember Jessica telling me that when she brought it to the hospital. And I also think about how fitting that both of your favorites is the one where you are holding her in the palm of your hand....and I think that's just what you are doing now.
She wears your grateful dead tshirt to bed and she hums shakedown street...LOL I know you are proud of that. But most importantly she has such a sweet, innocent spirit. That reaches out and grabs you...and makes you smile. She makes me smile. And I know you are proud of her.
I'm sorry Brian. I'm sorry that you are missing this. I'm sorry you had to experience a difficult ending to a sometimes painful journey on this planet. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you....
But I'm glad I knew you here on earth and I look forward to seeing you in heaven one day.
Keep the party going until we get up there!
I love you
Jamie
PS. I'm glad you were there to welcome my dear sweet Brody home. I'm sure he was glad to see a friendly face. And it comforts me (and Livi) to know that y'all are together.
posted by Jamie at 5:48 PM
4 Comments:
I read it :) Love you!
Tears and tears of happiness and sadness and then joy reading what you wrote.. Livi is a monument to the perfect child of everything mixed of her mom and dad and friends.. she'll always keep those memories close and Jamie- you are so instrumental in making that happen... thank you for all that you've done and do... you are an angel!
hello
my name is Carmen. I found your blog as i was looking for my best friend from high school Brian Keith Hatton. Please let me know if this is the same Brian. We both attended santa fe high for a couple years. we lived in Norwalk ca. he also has a brother Danny. yuor Brian has the same Birthday as my Brian.
I see you are not on very often. as soon as you can please ket me know if we have the same person. thank you and God Bless
I'm Melia, Brian's aunt Pam's daughter. All I can say is that the only time I met Brian was when I was a baby and I wish that I could have gotten to know him as my cousin before he left this earth. But I'm so happy that all anyone has to say about him is very good things! I'll get to see him one day and that's where I keep my hope.
love you Brain (and Danny)
~Melia
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